After purging last night for the first time in a good few days (an excellent streak for me) I had atrocious, agonising acid reflux last night. So bad that, combined with being uber-anxious, I did not get to sleep until past 1 this morning. Not so good as I had a trip out this morning to collect data. It has not completely gone away. My throat is taking a battering these days, I've had a persistent cough since summer as well, which I suppose I should bring up with my doctor.
I am anxious with anticipation due to my doctor's appointment tomorrow. The main fear going through my head is "what if they don't believe me?!". Despite my extensive mental health files dating back 8 or so years I'm stressed they'll think I'm just after drugs for recreation or attention seeking or something along those lines. I keep going over what I'm going to say. I need to phrase it in a way that a) lays the problem out clearly, b) does not make me seem too at risk, c) shows them I'm at the end of my fucking reel with the thoughts I'm constantly having. How do I balance that? I could take a friend with me but I don't particularly want to drag them into my problems - everyone is so stressed and busy right now, myself included.
I am anxious with anticipation due to my doctor's appointment tomorrow. The main fear going through my head is "what if they don't believe me?!". Despite my extensive mental health files dating back 8 or so years I'm stressed they'll think I'm just after drugs for recreation or attention seeking or something along those lines. I keep going over what I'm going to say. I need to phrase it in a way that a) lays the problem out clearly, b) does not make me seem too at risk, c) shows them I'm at the end of my fucking reel with the thoughts I'm constantly having. How do I balance that? I could take a friend with me but I don't particularly want to drag them into my problems - everyone is so stressed and busy right now, myself included.
Anna, I have a lot of similar feelings every-time I have to see a doctor regarding medication. I will also plan what I'm going to say, cause I'm so worried I won't properly convey what I need to in order to be treated properly. And even during my last appointment/check-in, they asked me if I had enough of my meds to get me through into my next appointment. I didn't think I did have enough, but when I got home I realized I did still have 1 refill left, and then I got worried my doctor would think I was taking too much of my meds or think I was being careless. I know this isn't very helpful, but I just understand your fears. And bring someone if you need to, and don't feel bad about it. I'm sure they would be happy to support you in any way that they can. My mom had to come with me to a lot of my appointments. But just good luck!
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