Had a nice if stressful weekend in London. Saw some great friends, had the odd heart-to-heart which felt really comforting and relieving but I'm still massively anxious. I want to scream and rip my hair out.
Had a talk with a friend who is convincing me to apply to Oxford. No way will I get the grades for it, I don't even know if I have the will to live that long, but even if I did get in on the off chance I think it'd actually kill me.
Group meal on Thursday. GREAT, no? NO. I thought it'd be just my small group of best friends but no, apparently, without consultation it's been decided to invite more people who I know and who I find interacting with without getting immensely stressed. You can't uninvite people, can you? And I mightn't see my friend who's moved to the US again before Summer. Difficult.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
also, forgot to take my meds today!
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